Perhaps this period of contemplation for you is a needed process in your growth? Often we do not change when we are comfortable, therefore discomfort makes us reach greater highs. Being the CHANGE as Gandhi suggested may take a lifetime. I have found the best rejuvenator is challenging myself to an attainable realistic smaller step. Most self aware people go through slumps in motivation, it is normal, natural and valuable for growth. Actually, you are exactly where you need to be to be your best.